This is a poem I have taken some comfort in. My most heartfelt sympathies go out to your family.
Aviana Bowie
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The Peace of Wild Things
When despair for the world grows in me and I wake in the night at the least soundin fear of what my life and my children's lives may be, I go and lie down where the wood drake rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds. I come into the peace of wild things who do not tax their lives with forethought of grief. I come into the presence of still water. And I feel above me the day-blind stars waiting with their light. For a time I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.
— Wendell Berry